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Do they really love you like they say they do? As if their lives would be over the moment you walked away. But only it never really seems that way.
Why the indifference ? The lethargy , the thoughtless ways.
What do you do when ignorance hits you hard in the face? When you fall flat and there’s dirt all over you. When every thing is trivial and dismissed away like it never mattered. Where every promise is made only to be broken. Ethereal in its unrealized gloom!
What do you do when you feel you give much much more, each time, to get nothing in return. Gracious helping of hurts and generous betrothals of demise.
What do you do when you are plagued with insecurities? Of impending doom and catastrophic conclusions.
Sometimes all you need to feel heard is a computer keyboard and the recurrent tapping of your soul. At least you feel you're being heard.
When no theory is foolproof and each new start leads back to mission impossible. What do you do when you’re bordering on futility and despair? When you feel ignored and unimportant.
What do you when you are sparkling with an ensemble of the priciest words man could afford? Filled with deceit, deception and decadency. Words which bear no comfort nor company!
When you ache to distinguish games from reality, Facade from factuality! When the love you thought is all perfect and rosy seems more of thorns that lie beneath perfumed petals of softness.
What do I do to make you care, to listen, to feel what goes on in me, to know that I yearn, to understand that I’m ordinary too. To realize you feel so sick you just don’t want to fight. To look at yourself one day and say you’ve got nothing to show for everything you have put into something.
What do I do to know you are really there??????????????....
“ Fashionably sensitive but too cool to CARE... I’m sorry I’ve mistaken you for somebody else..somebody who gave a DAMN..somebody more like myself ! ”
- - JEWEL
